Hellooo people out there! Was goin onnn...

Well, I guess I've been away a while. I mean, I've been a away too long. Long enough to know that gullible people are always going to be there, even when they seem to be distant.

Note to readers: This will get DEEP and personal real fast.

Mind you, I'm not the type to start shit or anything, but some people think they're so smart that they hide things. Hiding is fine for a while, then shit just happens (even in my life; I've kept things to myself...but only because I'm trying to make my own life work. I honestly try to help people not because I want something in return or anything, but just because I want things to be cool).

I've noticed that a friend of mine (close...I consider him close, like a brother) has seemed to misunderstand my position on things. Let's get this straight before I continue. People's lives (regardless if you think that your's may be PERFECT...) are a mess. Really. I've only noticed that as I'm done school for now, learning that people won't pull your slack. No number of excuses or white lies will cover your tracks. Soon enough, people start to figure that those lies are a bigger part of a larger one. That's when you think to yourself: How can I keep going on lying?

I'm sorry that you "wanted" to be in the movie. But let's be honest. If you wanted to, you'd do everything in your power to be there, and YOU know it. Your relationship with your significant other is testament to that (and I respect that). So please don't make me into an ignoramous by completely lying to my face about it.

As I type, I'm a mess...really. Almost confused...shaking and shit like I haven't slept good for days. lol. I mean, there's too much here on the table. I could outright say something....heck, I will. (and I'm sorry to say, since you've decided to be upfront, I'll be upfront)

If your friends (even 1) get into a scuffle with your girlfriend or significant other, then that means, you either: (1) Can't control your significant other, (2) Can't control yourself or have the balls to say something to make things cool, (3) or you decide to take sides. That last one is killer. I don't know everything (I've never had a girlfriend, so no use there in claiming that I have), nor do I even attempt to claim I do. I've just seen that shit before, and you know how it turns out. Please don't take sides...that's stupid and immature, especially when it comes to your family and friends. I may try to explain myself in long sentences, and I'm sorry, if you've noticed I'm a little slow, not everyone is perfect like you (please don't snicker. That's a weak and simple excuse to a larger mental problem).

I'm pissed. Not because of some stupid rhyme or attempt at hiding some kind of secret message. But because I had to hear it on some blog. So here you go Niloc. I'm going to give you a call soon. If you decide to call me first (because you have a problem with me) then I really respect that. That will make you a man, rather than hiding behind shit. I do that too...but you know me, I'm not one to throw shit in the fan. I hide things to be more mature about things, or at least try to be mature. Damn. Why do people have to make problems bigger?

I understand now...when you become so interested in others lives, rather than your own. It soon becomes second nature to feel left out of business that doesn't even concern yourself. That's sad. And it sucks...I passed through that when I was in elementary school, and it wasn't fun at all. I could go on for hours about this crap. But I know, this guy Niloc won't listen (you know you won't. So caught up in being right, that it's almost second nature for you to agree and disagree even when the situation doesn't call for it). I don't...but when it comes to saving relationships that are worthwhile, then I'll do everything in my power to help save them.

From this moment onward, I'm re-evaluting what I say. I joke, but know this: nice does not equal ignorant. I can do favours...fuck, I'll even parade about trying to help. But if the other side can't even understand (or even find the time to wait...dude, that's selfishness...no matter which way you place it) that people have their own lives, then that's too bad for them.

Nice is being ignorant to everything for that moment. And from what I understand "nice" has no attachments or paybacks. It's not even an act. I don't know why some people want to be nice? That's fucked up. Just be good to people. And not expect anything at all in return.

And dude, tell you significant other to talk to me then. Calling me (let's say, waking me) up at 10:30 at night to do something (regardless of how big or small it may be) is not cool, and you know that. Why do you think if I call your houses, I don't pry? Prying into someone's sleep is prying into someone's personal life. PERSONAL LIFE.

What pisses me off the most is...I don't even know this person's significant other that well. That's the scary part.

And I thought I knew people...


Rick James